Moody

 

Hi!

First day of  June!

I freaking moody.

Don't know what is the reason!

I can't figure out a reason to make myself cheer up.

SUCK MY LIFE!

Hate this type of stupid feeling.

Recently I felt something wrongs with me.

Everynight have nightmares.

DAMN IT!

Hate this type of feeling to the MAXXXXX!

Camwhore week

Sejarah Paper2

Kesusasteraan Melayu  Kertas 1

Exam mood is on. =)

First night of revision!

Bahasa Melayu Kertas 1

 

 

 

 

 

During revision night really suffer.=(

My mommoy keep on burst into my room to check whether am I studying or playing phone.

=__________________________________=

I speechless!

Camwhore is the thing I did to release my sleepyness.

I know is not pretty but it was so EPIC. XDDDDD

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! =D 

Epic memories for last Mid-term during school life!   

Phewwwwwwwww..=)

Mid-term exam finally gone.

Struggle hard for it.

Last minutes revision really killed me badly. =(

I don't wanna try it anymore.

During exam I was trying answer all the question.

I had answered what I knew.

Hope my results won't become SUCK!

This mid-term I have realised that time management was damn important.

3 hours to answer a exam paper is ain't enough!

I was keep compete with the time to answer up all my question.

I didn't have much time to manage my time la.

Recently I'm lack of discipline. ='((((((((((

I'm not crazy!

Actually I'm addicted to take exam.

I love to answer all those exam paper.

The questions are so differences from what teacher have thought.

Struggle hard and compete with the time.

These feeling damn awesome! =) 

Yesterday when teacher told us that Pengajian Am had 4 students failed it, lucikly I'm not 1 of them.

Actually I didn't read that subject because of laziness.

One more subject, Kesusasteraan Melayu.

Half of us failed paper 1.

Die la me.. =( (Hope that I'm not one of  them!!!!!!!)

The same thing I didn't did well on this paper also.

Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Full of sighness after exam.

Hope GOD bless me!!!!! =)

 

 

TODAY

Finally today I had meet up with the lower six juniors!

The amount of them not as much as my batch.

This batch all look nerd but they are pretty smart.

I became one of the facillator during the games session!

A very first time I became facillator.

My group didn't did well in verbal games.

It's alright.

The games are all came from the prefects camp!!!

LAME!!!

The Khairul memang x creative langsung.

It made me miss my prefect camp so much! =(

The main point is my group had became the champion for the country boom game!

I freaking love this game.

There are always some sad moment besides the happiness time.

The comment from Eddie Tan:

Hui Xian you overshadow the group leader!

FUCKOFF!!(Feel like want to shout at him but I didn't do so!) =(

Refresh back I really over a facillator's limit!

I'm just trying to lead the leader to became a smart and innovative leader!

Sorry that I'm over! =(((((((((((

Enjoy the ice breaking with them to the maxx. =D

Friday I gonna bring them to have a tour in Highschool.

The problem is some of the place myself also don't know. -_________-

Wish me good luck! ^^

 

I'll be okay?!

Today I doesn't did well for my MUET speaking test!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrr.. ='(

Actually I sad to maxxxxxxxx!

Why am I so stupid?

Why can't I perform well in Task A?

I lose many marks on that part!

After examiners told my weakeness I feel freaking sad.

I feel like want to cry!

At last I bear it and replenish myself that this is the first trial.

What Mr.billy said is true.

''This world not gonna ends up even you doesn't perform well, is okay!''

It make sense.

Now think back I just feel so sad and the tears want to come out...

Sad!!! =''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''(

I promise myself that I wont make myself feel sad like this anymore!

No one will sayang me now.

I will sayang myself.

I want my mommy proud of me!

Gonna challenge myself!

 Have to smile always to make my days more cheerful. =DDDDDD

 

Guilty?!

Am I deserve you to love/like me? 

I don't think so.

I'm not prefect enough!

I'm so sorry that I hurted you.

I feel touched on what have you did for me.

I appreciate all the stuff that you gave me.

Thank you so much!  ♥

I'm not deserve you to do so much for me!

I'm not as good as you thought!

I really can't accept the religion and age.

Even though peoples say that LOVE is blind but my life doesn.t allow it to happen!

I'm really so sorry to you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you so badly.

Hope you can find a girl who can love you and much more better then me !

Hey! YOU !!!!!

Is you..

All the best on you life. =)     ♥

50% Alive

Hot!!!!!!!

It doesn't means that I'm HOT! =D

I mean the wheather is freaking hot!

Day by day, there was no one drop of rain drop from sky!

Rain please..

The hot wheather is suffering me!

I had a very bad luck on last saturday!

My leg injured. ='(

 Even just a small part but it pain to the MAXXXXX after I have took bath.

PAIN!!!!!!!!

My head was injured too.

It LEBAM  but lucikly it not obviously can seen!

Today Mr.Billy conduct speaking trial with us.

I did very bad. ='(

I missunderstood with the task's situation.

I felt that day by day when my age increasing, my brain can't function well! 

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

FAILED!!!!!!

FML!!!!!!!!!

I have to work more harded for all subjects.

169 DAYS MORE TO GO FOR STPM!

16 DAYS MORE TO GO FOR MID-TERM!

Happy holiday for teachers on tomorrow!

I have tuition. =)

Glad that I have a hardworking PA teacher.

 

100% alive and healthy

I'm still alive and 100% healthy..=)

I lack of money! $-$

Exam is round the corner!

I'm freaking frustrated about that!

Oh God! Can someone help me?

Can someone save me from the deep end?

I have alots of thing to blog but suddenly the mood gone!!

FUCKMYLIFE! 

Lucikly I have a lolipop from someone!

Thank you him very very much!

It was my first time I have such big lolipop. =)

Have to 'chao' and go do revision! =(

 

2 Day 1 Nights CAMP!

Ignore my eyebag!
The boy is mamak gui.
He beria-beria want take picture with me.XD

This was my first camp in my life!

 I have never been through all this before I was 18.

This camp was espeacially for pengawas and PRS.

The purpose of this camp is to built up our leadership.

We reached Gunung Nuang around 9++am.

After that,we have met our facilitors our teachers who incharge of our camp.

There is also an annoying motivater together with us.

After finish our briefting,our teacher was given us a piece of cracker!

She said:Biscuit ini merupakan maruah diri anda,sila jaga baik-baik!

This is the amanah she gave us.

If the cracker doesn't break or lost,we will be given prizes.

All of us was so caring with the cracker and have used different ways to protect it.

After finish our lunch, we have a game sessions with our facilitors.

We were separate into 8 group.

I'm of the group leader.

There are wordble and non-wordble,singing song,play bomb country and also debate.

All the games was freaking awesome.

Based on the games,we learnt the way how to communicate and know each other.

I freaking enjoy the games.

Maybe is because I'm newbie in camp thats why I'm so enjoy.

Around 5pm++,all of us have to cook our dinner.

We are given a chicken and a pack of rempah-ratus,candle,mancis.

The facilitors never give any instruction on how we should cook.

They just say all this based on your creativity!

Our group have chose the method to stim it.

Our group is the fastest group to cook the chicken masak!

Every group have their way to cook their chicken!

Just because of 1 group doesn't follow the facilitator's instruction,they have ate the chicken.

All the group leader included the penghulu and penghuluwati also kena ''M16''!

The annoying motivated scolded us like HELL!

After gave scold,finally we can eat our chicken!

After dinner, we went to shower and prepare for the next activities!

Doesn't looks tasty but it taste nicely!

 Around 9pm++,we have a night walk in jungle!
That night made me nervous to the maxxxx and scare.
It was my first time have this type of activities.
I entered forest was not alone but with a flock of peoples.
It was a very nice experience!
While the night walk have started,everyone plays the roles to take care each other.
Thank to Yee Wei.
She is so brave and keep telling me that there is nothing to be afraid!
Heart her so much.. ♥ ♥
It was a tiring,funny night walk.
I enjoy it to the maxxxxxxx..
Miss it so much!♥
After finished up the night walk,it already 12:30am.
We are rushing to shower then sleep.
It was my first time to sleep with all indian girls.
The room only have 2 chinese girls~ Yee Wei and me.
The room have more then 6 indian girls.
After lying down,all sleep like a PIG! XD

The next morning
We have to wake up at 5:30am!!!
Freaking sleepy.
After 6am only we have started our activities.
The time around 6-9am was freaking sucks!
The facillitors was playing wordable games with us!
NOOB!
After having our breakfast only we can go hiking!
It was a tiring hiking.
My leg sucks by leech!!!!!
OMG! 
It was a very very first time in my life!
It takes more than 2 hours to hike up and down.
All the tiring is valuable because I have successfully finish the first hiking in my life!


Around 5:30 only we reach our school and go back home by our own!
Gunung Nuang is a great place to hike!
Miss it alotsssss.. ♥

Learnt alot from this camp!
A leader is ain't easy to be! =(

Expect NOTHING!

Hello April!!!

I have abandon my blog since a long long time ago!

I'm freaking busy.

I'm so stress.

Just like no way to let me release it.

I miss god brother so so much,but I cant tell him so much.

He is not in Malaysia and he also busy with his studies.

Now is the time to let me be more independent.

Gonna faced all the problem silently. =(

In studies...

I'm so lame in all the subjects.

Those knowledge which I have learnt I hard to apply on the question.

When Mr.Billy asked me to write an essay, my brain was so blank!

Whats is in my mind?

Freaking stress.

Sejarah is the most annoying subject in my current life.

Arrrrrrrrrrrrr..

Just want to screw that paper badly, but it is really hard for me! ;(

FML!!!!!!

My lovely brain, please be good to me.

All the coming exam needs you alot!

Pleas function as well as you can!

In friendship..

Guess what?

Miracle just happened.

I never ever expect that she will buy me a souvenir.

Yes, she did!

OMG!!!!

What is in HER mind?

I really don't know about that!

Even thought she doesn't pass that stuff by her own, but I can feel the meaning.

I also never expect that will help me solve my problem too.

Today she lend me RM 100 for the MUET stuff.

I really never expect that she will help me.

It just like a decade we never talk to each other after that BBSM stuff happened!

Thanks you a lot!!!!!

What is in my mind?

Starting to think a lots when something burst out too suddenly and naturally.

After think and think, I just like I can't afford what I'm hoping nowadays.

Lets the time to decide all this stuff!

Hey April, please love me as much as you can!

School Holiday

John Carter~~

Rate:4.5/5

Awesome movie.

Went to Balakong's Jusco to watch it after kelas tambahan.

A very first time watch movie with Eddie,Phoon,Yee Wei,and Alex(Second time).

Today finally I have tasted 'CHATIME'!

LOL!!!!

This has cost me for RM5.90.

Damn expensive!! 

Love the colour my nails so much.. <3

Have gone through a lots of failed process only can success.=(

Should get the moral value from the painting process.

Never give up easily!

One day you'll success after you try and try !

Never GIVE Up ! =)

Down

Hardworking doesn't means that you will success!

I'm hardworking!

So WHAT??

My result still terrible. ='(

What is the HOLY CRAP results that I have?

Haizzzzzzzzzz..

SHIT!!!!!!!

Not one can blame!

I just can blame myself that I'm not intelligent enough!

I have to akur to kehendak Tuhan.

What should I do is no more study at last minutes.

It is a very tiring job for me..=(

Before I regret for my rest of life,I have to take some action!

Study as hard as I can.

This is what I can do for STPM!

I will pass STPM with a flying result.

For those who looks down at me,just wait and see!

For those who looks up at me,just stay tuned!

I won't make you feel dissapointed!

STAY TUNED!!

Stronger!!!!

Nightmare

Arrr..

Nightmare..=(

Am I too tired?

Why I have such nightmare?

What is my problem actually?

Why I dream't about bunny boy?

The dream was so lame!

Doesn't want to write out whats had going on.

Told Alex about it and he asked me why classified it as nightmare?

I really don't know why!

A very first time I dream't about him! O.o

Weird!

I'm too tired.

Really have no time to miss him.

Why he appeared in my dream?

Neutral mood

FML!

Have gone through a singletine day.

Facing tired and lifeless days.

Days and days,

again and again!

Sometimes I can't really found a single reason for myself to live happily.

Everyday I'm forcing myself to cheer up!

What for? I don't even know the answer!

Feel sad everyday!

No one can actually me up.

Smile is just don't want my friend worry about me.

Smile is to make myself become happier.

Smile is to make people know that you're such a sweet person!

No one actually care with your smile whether your smile is fake or true.

Experienced a lot of stuffs have made me grow more mature.

I'm really exhausted with the current life!

Goes to school everyday is for what?

Entertain the teachers?Friends?Get knowledge?

I can't even answer properly.

Whats is my problem?

What is in my mind?

No one can answer me not even myself!

I need to change my mind!

Have to study well.

Get 4 FLAT.

This should not be a problem for me.

Just concentrate on your studies.

I have no time for other stuff besides school stuff!

Study is just an insurance for myself.

What is my ambition is not an issue for me anymore.

What is important now for me?

Get 4 FLAT for STPM.

I bet no one will degrading me anymore!

4 FLAT ain't easy to get.

Hardworking but no smart enough that is me.

I doesn't hate myself.

Adapt knowledge I always is the slowest!

Yeah..;)

Save the best for the last!

Less than 10 months before STPM!

Gonna pass the months like a cow!

Gonna be a cow soon! =)

Ng Hui Xian.

Bear it in your mind.

You have to be the best.

You need to stay strong whatever what happen.

Be the best to prove that you're not a weaker!

Good good luck for yourself!

Study well for the coming STPM!

Bet it kao kao!

Alone

Happy Valentine Day!

I'm single and available.=(

Really hate this type of day!

I forever alone.='(

I'm not desperate!

Just that sometimes I need someone to coax me when I'm sad!

Borrow me his shoulder when I'm tired!

Is that very hard to fulfill my wish?

Why every relationship can't last until valentine day?

When people having the happiness with their loved one,I freaking jealous!

I admired that I jealous!

Freaking jealous!

What to do?

Just stay alone. ='(

Forever alone!

So What?

Flu gone!

The LOVE towards him gone too!

Phewwwww~~

What a stupid feelings!

Valentine day coming soon.

So what?

Yes.I'm alone as usual!

FML!!!

The homework burden me like HELL!

Actually I have lots of stuff to blog.

The problem is my homework haven't settle yet!!

Gotta move now.

Gonna screw the homework!

=(

The 43th day

Heart breaks...=(

Just want dedicate this song for him.

The 43 day,our relationship ended.

I never drop one of my tears when he said that want break up.

My mood was so neutral!

Everything about both of us will end soon.

He is not that important and valuable for me.

I grow stronger! ^^

I faced all this silently.

I'm proud of myself.=)

Do not choose a boy who younger  than you to be your boyfie!

Freaking ain't easy

Start schooling again!

9th January 2012

Wearing Pink shirt ain't fun.

A first Monday prefects have to do sport check.

I was LIKE A BOSS.

I really don't know what should I do!

A new and first experience to do such thing!

After done all the sport check,I had rushed back to class.

FML!

Is BM!!!!

I feel so stress.

I have never ever experience that stress before!

Form 6 BM ain't easy!!

We just like have to learn back all the basic.

I'm suffering!!!
Just feel so weird.

BM is my favourite subject and it never bring me a lot of problem but whats going on with me?
I have no confident to do well in my BM? = =||||||||

Stress to the MAXXXXXXXX!!

The second subject was KM.

FUCK MY LIFE KAO KAO!

Puan Shamsinah was given us a lot of assignment~tugasan for pembentangan.

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!

Just feel like wanna shout out loudly.

I'm gonna mad soon!!!!!!!

FUCK YEAH..(Taught by senior) But I never ever feel better also..= =|||||||||

I'm gonna busy with it soon. =(

After recess was PA.

A lifeless subject because I have a suck teacher.

She teach just like no teach.. = =|||||||

Really don't know why she still can survive until now?!

Next,Muet.

Mr.Billy is a awesome teacher!

Love to listening to his speaking.

But don't know why I was sooooooo sleepy.

Maybe is because I too tired, and I still having my class at 2pm in the afternoon. =(

WTF!!!!

I have MPP meeting till 3:30.

Extremely tired on that time.

Can I bear it for the whole year?

I wish to say yes!

I'm freaking stress.

Can anyone help me?

10th January 2012

So lifeless!!!!!

FML!!!

SEJARAH again for 3 period!!!!!!

Keep scolding us STUPID!!!

We are not stupid okay???!

Just the way you teach we can't accept.

Everyday bull shitting in front of us about your ex student,

so love them then go ahead to teach them as long as you like.

BELAH LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Hate her to the MAXXXXXX..

Never teach us well but just know to blame us.

YOU MEMANG BABI!!!!

Arghhhh..nanti I study x berkat!!! =(

Hope one day she can know the way she teaching nowadays was outdated!!!

R&D for the first time in this year.

Feel so stress ahhhhhhhh.

Soal selidik have no idea.[but I already done just now] XD

Tuesday reached house at 2:30pm
Phewwwww..=(

Tired!

I'm the AJK DATA for the lembaga pengawas!

OMG!!!

I'm freaking hate this job just because I have no time to stay back.

FYI I gonna start my tuition in February!

Arghhhhh..

Annoying!!!

Can someone take over my post?

11th January 2012

Another day which was freaking annoying.

You know what?

I went back home at 5pm.

It was almost in the evening.

DAMN crazy!!!

I was sooooooooooo busy with BSMM stuff.

FML till the MAXXXXXXX!!!

I have a post in BSMM which is wakil tingkatan 6.

FUCK MY LIFE !!!!!

Why I like to torture myself?

I wonder to know that answer!

Something happen which made my mood sooooo down!!

JeaChee got asthma again.

I'm not besides her!

I'm not qualify to be her best friend anymore.

I will just be her infinity normal friend

[My heart feel sooooooooooo pain when I do this decision] ='(

Just feel like I have no friends around me when I feel sad.

On this day I was so busy with hanging on the phone with didi.

First, Kenji. He makes me laugh like a mad person. Thank to cheer me up! =)

Second, Heong. A handsome di who can let me felt that he really care about me. I can feel so sweet and comfortable while talking to him. His mouth is very sweet! Heart him a lot!! Love him so much..<3

(Sometimes hope that my boyfie can do what Heong always did to me.)

Third,Jefferson. This fella was so funny. While chatting suddenly he change the language and keep allow me to say bad word to him.XD 

This three little boy is so amazing.

They can cheer my day and let me released out all my stress.

Heart you all so much..♥♥♥

12th January 2012

A relax day which I can go back at 12:30.

Today I choose to lepak at MCD.

I have brought Santhana a birthday present.

Hope she will like it. =)

Heart her,my dear lesbo..<3

Have a short nice talk my my dear di~Heong.

Hope next time I can talk with him like that more.

This few day keep got some person told me or ask me about Alvin!

I'm kinda miss him too. =C

Refresh back what have both of us did while the last time outing was really sweet.

I miss that day so much!

Still remember both of us was so crazy on that day.

If I not mad with him for some reason,

I think he can be my boyfie soon. =(

I still can remember what he said last time for our next outing.

But too bad,I refused him.

Regret~ing now. ='(

I wanna hang out once again with him.

Very annoying.

Can all this solve if I die young?

Sibling love

Finally I understand what is siblings love!

I can feel the siblings love which brought by Jefferson and Heong.

Thanks to both of you! =)

Heong arr..

Happy birthday ya.

This is the first year I wish you happy birthday.

Enjoy your birthday with your love one.=)

Have a blast!

Jefferson,if you saw this post don't jealous ya.

Next time your birthday I will do the same thing for you!

Wish you happy birthday on my blog. =)

So, you don't 'jelly' ya.. XD

Heart this two di sooooooo much. ♥

Thanks to both of you who make me feel what is siblings love.

Zj gor who now in Canada,Winnipeg.

I miss you sooooooooo much.

I need the siblings love from you!

When I feel stress, you are the one I remember!

Always. =(

Since you went to Canada I have lost a people to chat and sms with.

Really feel so lifeless without you.

I have a lots of thing want to chat with you.

Due to the situation, I need let you study but not burden you.

I forgot to wish you HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Hope you healthy always and all the best on your studies!

Just found out something on your wall.

I'm totally speechless.

Fuck my Life

fml!!!!

Christmas eve was working!

New year eve was working too!!

Money is soooooooo important for me.. =(

Argh~~~~

School finally reopen.

I was so busy until forgotten to blog.

Just 3 days school reopen I already being so busy!!

The first day of school was so suck!

Teachers was giving us a lots of stress.

Upper six ain't easy!

6 more months gonna have MUET test! ><

9 more months STPM!

FML 

Besides stress,I found back the happiness too.. =)

There are my classmates.

We can share alots of things like:

secret

 foods

and drinks too..=)

Really have a lots great of great time with them.

Welcome back my LESBO!

I haven't finish up my holiday homework!!

FML!!!!!