♥

♥

 When someone does not deserve your love,
then
Say goodbye but never say hello again.
Pick the pieces up but never fix them.
Forget but never regret.
Feel the pain but never keep it.
Move on, but never move away...

Should I continue all this stuff?

Suffering like HELL.

If you really so busy,

GO AHEAD.

I won't disturb you!

Everybody keep asking about you and me.

What should I answer?

Arghhhh..

Yeah!

We have nothing.

This is the answer I answered them!

I just feel like want to end up all this.

Just say goodbye,

never regret,

keep move on.

But

I can't.

I have no dare to do this.


Say bye bye to November.
A lot of things happen in this lonelyness month.
Where have I been?
What have I done?
Went to a river camp,knew a lot of friends,gained a lot of experiences!
Starting my school holiday.
Went to 1 day trip.
Shopping and buy some stuff.
And I used a lots of money too.=(

My Girlfriend is a Gumiho

Listen to this song!

I think all the nice songs are in this video.

I know I've outdated!

This movie had post on TV a few months ago!

I really can't wait for Friday!

I want watch this. XD

Make a difference

Arghhh!

Why this holiday so boring?

I keep viewed other people photos.

Especially my seniors.

They are so freaking awesome.

As usual,

I start thinking silly stuff again!

2011 almost ended!

What have I been through this year?

A lots..

Just feel like I need make a difference.

First~~

I need lose my weight!

I have gain a lots of weight.

Almost reach 50KG..

Grrrrrr..

I'm a fatty right now!

Next~~

I should be more mature.

Everybody keep say that I like a 16years old girl!

Please stop it!!! ><

I'm already 18 years old!

My mind is mature enough!

I want to be a pretty girl.

I need rebuilt my confident point!

Next and Next~~

I must study like a cow!

No more LOVE on next year!

I must reduce my time on facebook!

Too addicted with facebook is like addicted on drugs!

I should control myself. ^^

Hope I can do it! XD

I really need tuition!

I don't know whether I can survive till STPM anot?!

Grr..

A very first time I feel so annoying to find a place where to tuition Sejarah!

I need an A+ indeed to PAUSE my history teacher's mouth!!

WTF!!!!!!!

I kinda need this!!!

!!!

WTF!!!

Whats going on with my mother?

Why??

Why she keep forcing me go out to work?

Mommy..

I really dislike this kind of forcing.

Please stop forcing me!

I need stay at home to do my revision due to next year is my STPM!!!!!

Stop it please!!!!!!!!

Yesterday spend a lots of money! $_$
I have bought the prefect shirt and a pairs of black shoes.
Spend almost RM90.
Need work pretty hard to earn back those more.
Earn money isn't easy and spending money is so EASY!!

The pink shirt!

SILENT

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150416869504814

SILENT
The remaining piano with me all day long.
只剩下鋼琴陪我彈了一天
The cello fall asleep. Silent and old.
睡著的大提琴　安靜的舊舊的
I think you show your feel very clearly.
我想你已表現的非常明白
I know & I understant. You leaved without regret
我懂我也知道　你沒有捨不得
You said you'dl be sad,too.But I don't believe that
你說你也會難過我不相信
It is past that I walked hand in hand with you.
牽著你陪著我　也只是曾經
I wish he would love you more than I did.
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
If so, I will leave with reluctance.
我才會逼自己離開
How barrassed I am.I don't want to break up with you at all.
你要我說多難堪　我根本不想分開
Why do you want me face it with smiling.
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Tolerate you and forgive him? I am not good at this.
我沒有這種天份　包容你也接受他
Don't worry about me. I will be fine.
不用擔心的太多　我會一直好好過
You had been far away from me.
你已經遠遠離開　我也會慢慢走開
Why should I accommodate myself to leave you
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
I don't have the talent to be silent that soon.
我真的沒有天份　安靜的沒這麼快
I will learn to away from you. Beacuse I love you so much.
我會學著放棄你　是因為我太愛你

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This song was covered by my handsome junior~Ken Cham
He is a cool boy.
Last Thursday was my first time accidently yamcha with him.
He is freaking handsome.
I really have nothing to chat with him.
Arghhh..  ><
It seems like I have generation gap with him.
He is so talented.
Love his voice to the MAXXX!!

I love this song so muchhh.. <3

A song which can express my feeling towards bunny.

I keep repeated and repeated this song.

My mind was bunny's image.

OMG!!

What the HELL with me?!
Maybe just like the quote in the picture!
Why am I so afraid to lose you when you are not even mine?
Guess what?
We already almost 3 or 4 weeks doesn't chat properly.
If chat also just few sentences than you need off already!
I chat with my juniors more that you!!!
I wondering what are you busying with??
Always say want to hang out together.
You are the one who keep busy and just online to check your stuff!
What the HELL with you now?
I regret I keep back my sentences on that day.
If I never keep back maybe u will more care about me.
I hate you.
You know what happen to me through my status but I don't even know one stuff about you!
I miss you so much..<3
After the hang out we never hang on phone also..
I miss your voice badly.
How was your car test?
Remember what you promise on me?
I hope you still remeber!!
I hate you but at the same times I love u too..><


I should be more optimistic.
I remember you dislike I cry.
And I wont cry because of you.
Can you pause your work?
And have a look on me and ask what I need!?

What a boring holiday!!!

 

无奈又好笑

工作是人生必经的阶段!!

每一位前辈都告诉我工作也是在上着大学呀!!!

什么大学??社会大学咯!!!!!

我觉得无奈又好笑! ==||| 

但是这是无可否认的事实!!

好矛盾噢!!! >< 

我的确在工作上学到了不少事和物!

昨天晚上有工作但是只有我一个做,静怡很安娣他们都没做.(我仿佛能孤身作战了!!)

这也没什么值得好光荣啦!!! >< 

我不知道怎么了,不是很喜欢和小过我的人聊天!

我觉得他们的思想很幼稚.(虽然我没比他们好很多,但最起码我比他们成熟!)

好笑的是有一个人31岁的哥哥说不用掺他们,他们好像都长不大!

他还很无聊的和厨房的安娣研究我的脸.

如果他们不讲我都忘记了我的脸有青根. XD

他还说我的清根代表很多人追的,也说我很美.(我只觉得很好笑) 哈哈.XDDD

如果是真的话我已经去拍拖了啦,那里还会站在那边跟他讲话!

做人嘛还是乖乖听话比较好一点,这样也会有比较多人疼!

要谢谢昨天留东西给我吃的老uncle.

谢谢丫!!^^

有时候做乖宝宝也不是一件坏事! XPPP

 这两首歌是那31岁的哥哥介绍我听的!

好好听哦! =)

我很喜欢. XP

祝那哥哥新婚快乐,早生贵子! XDDD

song

 

Repeated and repeated to listen this song!

Addicted with this song.

有很多话不是一朝一夕就能解释出来的

就连自己在想什么都不了解

有要怎样说出口呢?

Life

Lifeeee!! 

What a boring holidays.

Guess what?

Yesterday was 21st.

The relationship already 1 month!

I also just realised on last night.

Do you realise?

 Hmm.. 

I dont think you care. T.T

Whatever.

I can't bother so much.

Just let it come when GOD allow!

You know what?

I miss my kai gor so much la.

Viewed his photos on FB.

The country which he studying now is snowing.

How good are him can stay in a snowing country.

A long holidays.

BORING.

What can I do?

A lot of  things I can do.

Grrrr..

Time to jog.

I wanna lose weight!

 

Maggi DAY-->10-11-2011

A maggi day with my 3 lovely classmates.

Hs Lee,Eddie and Maria(the big boss of the house).

 

 Eddie and I went out to school early to buy the maggi.

We PONTENG again. XP 

 The Hs Lee stay at school to wait for her MUET paper.

She is the most mafan person.

We fetch that Maria go buy too.

 

 Fishball and Ham.

That Maria prepare this for us.

Thanks ya Maria. ^^

 

 Eddie,Maria and me are waiting for the water to boil.

The Maria was very blur.

That house doesn't seems belongs to him.

He not really know where those cooking stuff place at where!

SPEECHLESS!!!

Open all the Maggi pack while waiting for the water to boil!

The tomyam flavour Maggi.

Cooked by three person

There are 5 packs of Maggi.

Is a meal for 4 peoples.

Phew.

Finally done.

Hungry like HELL on that time.

That Hs Lee very annoying.

3 of us was waiting her.

She still haven't reach Maria house after finish school.

She really mafan.. haha

Damn lazy to write.

Last few day no wifi connection so I doesn't blogging.

Maggi day is really enjoy.

 

What a day

What a day is today!

Chit chatting like HELL today. =)

Asking a lots of silly questions to Alex..

Ahaha.. XP

Just because he is the one who couple among us!

Those silly questions sound so crazy.

It makes me laugh until my stomach pain. XD

My day ended by that ridiculous conversation.

I'm freaking enjoy.

 

My life would suck without my classmate. XP

High peeps.

I LOVE you all!!!!

Before I forget one more things!

It really mind fuckkkkkkk!!!

It was about my history teacher.

I'm so sorry to talk bad about her but she really damn annoying me!! = =

Don't know what the hell with her today.

When I sat when Eddie Tan,she came and forced me to sit back my place!

This is the thing I hate the most when a teacher ordering me to do so.

grrrrrr.. = =

You know what?

She said that I'm not good at all..(she mean my result)

WTF..

You're SUCK!!!

My mood getting better after scold it out! ^^

 

 

 Is time to pack up my school bag.

Hope tomorrow is a nice day with them.

XP

I'm still alive

 

Yeah..=)

Tomorrow is school day again!

I no need to stay at home anymore.

Holiday doesn't came to a right time.=(

So many days of holiday but I just stay a home.

What a waste!!!!!! 

Doing nothing at home.

FML  

Whatever.

Just want to let the world know that I'm still ALIVE!

 

You do not deserve

In fact, I'm fine, but you do not deserve ♥

其实我很好，只是你不配 ♥

I'm emo like HELL now!!! ;'(

I want cry loudly, but the tears doesn't allow me to do so.

I'm a LOSER!

I choose to give up because I have no confident on him anymore! 

I don't want to waste my time on a person who doesn't love me at all.

I freaking suffer!

No points for me to continue this stuff!

I should wake up now!

This will be the last post about you in my blog.

Love you the more hurt myself the most.

Hurt to the maxxxxxx..=(

Now is the time I let you go.

I need empty my heart.

You are just a stranger who past by my life!

  This is the song will make me remember that day we hanged out together! ;'(
It was my sweet memory.
I wont erase it in my mind.

Say bye to BUNNY!

  ='(

Just a dream

Lumix GF 1(WHITE) is the first camera I crush on.

Unfortunately, this model already stop it's production.

Opps... Sad..='(

 Pentax K-r White

The next camera I crush on too..^^

I don't have many information about this model..=( 

Pentax camera is a new brand.

Nikon J1..

This is the camera I LOVE the most... ♥

I hope one day I can have this..

What mom say maybe not real but what I can do is achieve good pointer.

Pointer as 3.67 ain't easy to achieve. 

I can't care too much.

Just because the camera I willing to struggle for it.

Nikon J1 wait for me!!!XP

Just now I was reading their past post.

I realised something.

They make me understand a truth.

I freaking jealous.

What to do?

I just can feel it by my ownself and down for it.

No points I suffer myself like this!

I will stop this.

All just a dream.

Xenia Ng Hui Xian is time to wake up! =)

There is always someone besides you who loves you.

Struggle hard.

Good pointer.

Hope camera is not a dream!

 

Waiting for a MIRACLE

I look forward to, expect you to give me a miracle.
But I afraid that this is a distant dream.
I know, I can not want a lot, I only wish I could like you so quiet,
Sometimes so quietly like a person is actually a blessing, an expectation.

You are my happiness, happiness why people become depressed.
I love you not wonder, I just want to say to you is sincere.
I remember in the fairy tale has been slowly melted, my pursuit of a dream go away,
Since love, why leave something to lose, and also come back in,
Perhaps like the song sung by "Later, I finally learned how to love, pity you had gone away in the sea, was in tears and finally understand that some people miss when not in"
Happy to see his face, the pain in his heart who feel they have to.

If you fall in love, do not easily let go the opportunity.
Rash, may regret it for a while,
Cowardice, it may make you regret it forever.
Do not call me down you, I can not do, I expect you to give me a miracle.
I have been waiting for you ...

我在期待，期待你给我一个奇迹。
但是我还是害怕，害怕这是一个遥不可及的梦。
我知道，我不能渴望很多，我只希望我能够这样静静的想你，
有时候就这样静静的想一个人其实也是一种幸福，一种期待。

你就是我的幸福，为何幸福让人变得忧郁。
我爱你不在怀疑，只想对你说我是真心的。
我记忆里的童话已经慢慢融化，我追求的梦渐渐远去，
既然爱，为什么要离去，有些东西失去了，就在也回不来了，
或许就像歌中所唱 “后来我总算学会了如何去爱，可惜你早已远去消失在人海，后来终于在眼泪中明白，有些人一旦错过就不在”
脸上的快乐看的到，可心里的痛有又谁感觉的到。

如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。
莽撞，可能会后悔一阵子，
怯懦，却可能使你后悔一辈子。
别叫我放下你，我做不到，我在期待你给我个奇迹。
我会一直一直的等待你……

Past

Everything have past!

Exam ended!

A friendship ended!

A fake dream about him ended!

Holiday ended but will start soon again! =)

Just left my life haven't end!!! @@

Today is 4th NOVEMBER.

What have I did?

NOTHING MEANINGFULL..=P

 Finally today have back all my exam's result.

Even thought not pass with a flying paper,but I damn satisfied!

Hmm..

Only got one subject FAILED!!!

I less 2 more marks. = =

SEJARAH~~

This is the only subject which 'mengganggu fikiran saya'!

Headache.

Don't know need put how many effort only enough to cover it. T.T

Looking forward!!! ^^

I need become more hardworking.

I need get good pointer.

Now I only achived 2/4.

Satisfied? Not really. T.T

Arghhhhh..

I want to hang out.

I want watch movie!!!! =')

I'm addicted with the sound effect in the cinema.

I wanna hang out with bunny too.

I like the safety feel which he can give to me..♥

The conclusion are

STUDY to get good pointer!

ENJOY my form6 life!

All the best NG HUI XIAN!

Life keeps going on..♥   =)